Just watched 'A Walk to Remember' and cried my eyes out! I guess this month only I watched The Fault in Our Stars and yeah of course read the novel as well. I did not know that A Walk to Remember was also based on a similar theme but midway in the movie I don’t know I started to feel like the movie was going to turn in that direction somehow and I could feel my heart getting heavy! When Landon and Jamie were falling in love, I should’ve felt happy for them but i was just waiting for them to reveal what was it that felt so sad! 

Loved the movie and as I was watching it, it suddenly struck me! The biggest regret of my life right now is the fact that I’ve never felt what it’s like to be in love....to feel love. But I guess it's not just for me to ever find out! You see in every movie, the girl is beautiful.... even if she's a geek, even if she's sick, she's dumb.....no matter what, they are pretty or they eventually turn out to be pretty!! But that's something I’m not and never will be! 

god has given me so much.....really has...but not just this one thing and I guess it's the most important thing when it comes to love!

I wonder how it feels to be in love, to kiss someone you love, to spend time with them, be apart from them....... to be something to someone and to be someone's something!

And it’s scary and it scares the hell out of me sometimes and there's probably no one who'll understand and no one I can confide this to.

I think it’s all crap about being beautiful from the inside..... Just stuff people make up to make someone like myself not feel what I really feel!

And I’m not even someone who doesn’t give a crap about what other's think of me or maybe that too are just people in the movies!! I wonder how it feels never being conscious of people looking at you cos your creeping them out or because you're nothing more than a CLOWN to them!!

Another night I cry myself to sleep......

Wonder

Loved it!! I took my time with this book which may sound weird cos it's a very easy read but that's probably cos I was distracted by a few other things when I started it!

Anyways, it's a beautiful story about August , a young boy who suffers from severe facial abnormality and how he comes to terms with it but more than that how he comes to terms with how people around him react towards him...

But what makes the book so unique is that it not only tells Augie's story but also that of his friends and family members. How they deal with and react the way they do!!

I especially enjoyed Augie's sister, Via's story and of course Julian's!! 

I think the hardcover edition does not include the Julian chapter and if you have read that version let me tell you that you have missed out on one of the most beautiful chapters of the novel! I can't even imagine how the novel would be complete without it!! It's just beautiful and gives so much insight into why Julian reacts the way he does!! 

Loved it!

p.s. - although I know Julian's condition is way too worse and serious I could very easily relate to him. We all have our insecurities and all we need is love and respect from others!! 

"It's like people see you sometimes, and you can't imagine what it would be like to be that person, whether it's somebody in a wheelchair or somebody who can't talk. Only, I know that I'm that person to other people, maybe to every single person in that whole auditorium.

To me, though, I'm just me. An ordinary kid." 

After

Read it last year on wattpad and then bought the book as well..... 

it was a fanfiction so if you're a Directioner you'll probably love it as I do, otherwise I'm not so sure....

I think I'll have to buy the entire series now that I'm left hanging in the middle by the end of the 1st part!!

The Fault in Our Stars

Another wonderful wonderful novel that I finished in less than 2 days cos it was so damn good!! 

I laughed and I cried and then I cried some more....  it's written so beautifully!! it is so different from the  mainstream YA lit. novels! And despite the fact that the story deals with something as grave as Cancer, there's no over the top melodrama or excessively sad paragraphs thrusted just for the sake of it.

Augustus Waters and Hazel Grace are undoubtedly one of my fav literary couples of all time... 

the last novel I read was 'Stolen' by Lucy Christopher...both books talk about love....and in each case, love that is so different and yet so similar....

aahh...loved it!!!

Good in Bed

So i bought this book for my research. Initially the plan was to write my dissertation on Chick lit but somehow the plan didn't work out and i changed to British Drama instead of chick lit. 

Since the book had been lying about in my book shelf for so long, i decided to give it a go. the cover also looked appealing and i was in mood for a light read so in i went for a quirky, funny , romantic read, or so i thought!!

The story's about this plus size woman, Cannie and her break up with her boyfriend Bruce followed by their "getting back together moment" after the death of Bruce's father and the result of this rekindling, Cannie become pregnant! Then follows her struggle to keep herself distracted from continuously thinking about Bruce and if they should get back together, if he still loves her, does he care about her.... and all those "what if.." and "should i ?" scenarios popping up in Cannie's mind....

And what you may ask is the reason for their break up in the first place? Well, it's the article that Bruce writes about Cannie whom he addresses as "C" for the Moxie magazine. 

"Loving a Larger Woman" !!

and so he continues to write about her in every monthly issue of Moxie, revealing intimate experiences that the two shared in their private moments. 

Then follows Cannie's introduction with Dr. K, who eventually turns out to be the hero in Cannie's life with whom she and her daughter, Joy, settle down. 

In between all this, there's the part dealing with Cannie's personal life, her parents - lesbian mother living with her new partner who's taken up Cannie's room in her mother's house (much to Cannie's distress) and a father who abandoned his kids and who with his constant criticism of his daughter's body turns out to be the sole reason why Cannie hates herself, the way she looks! Then there's the part where the heroine stumbles upon a celebrity, Maxi who is so impressed by her that she lets her stay with her in all the luxuries that a celebrity status can shower and who helps her in realizing her biggest dream, publishing her screenplay!

And i guess that's pretty much it! I did not really enjoy reading it and had to constantly remind myself that since i've started it i must end it and not leave it half-way. The second part of the book was much batter than the first half.

The best part though - 

Cannie's article in the end that she publishes in Moxie that exposes Bruce. I thought it was very well written and i enjoyed reading it more than anything else.

Stolen: A Letter to My Captor

Loved it!!!! I've never finished a novel in 2 days..and the fact that I was done with it in less than 2 days goes to show how good it was! I mean, I just couldn't stop turning the pages...it's so interesting and captivating! 

I loved the relationship that Ty and Gemma shared.... it was like I could very easily feel what Emma was feeling and I like her hated Ty but then loved him too and hated some more and then loved a lil more.... 

And towards the last few pages, my eyes teared up a bit...cos I felt bad for Ty and bad for Gemma..I mean I still can't figure out if I love or hate Ty's character and I guess in a weird way that's the best part about this story!! 

This is the kinda' novel that I know I'll enjoy reading as much in a few years down the lane as I did today!! 

So glad I bought it!! :)

Thank you Lucy Christopher !

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

I have always been a fan of Maya Angelou's poetry so i was curious to read her autobiography. Needless to say, it was amazing. She has a way with words and the way she pours out her heart in the book is commendable. The book details her struggle as a black woman growing up in her momma (grandmother) and mother's home, her deep loving relationship with her brother Bailey, her estranged relationship with her mother's boyfriends and the impact they had on her psyche, her short-lived romantic adventures and eventually her stepping into motherhood. I enjoyed reading it and would love to read it again in future...