Just watched 'A Walk to Remember' and cried my eyes
out! I guess this month only I watched The Fault in Our Stars and yeah of
course read the novel as well. I did not know that A Walk to Remember was also
based on a similar theme but midway in the movie I don’t know I started to feel
like the movie was going to turn in that direction somehow and I could feel my
heart getting heavy! When Landon
and Jamie were falling in love, I should’ve felt happy for them but i was just
waiting for them to reveal what was it that felt so sad!
Loved the movie and as I was watching it, it suddenly struck me! The biggest
regret of my life right now is the fact that I’ve never felt what it’s like to
be in love....to feel love. But I guess it's not just for me to ever find out!
You see in every movie, the girl is beautiful.... even if she's a geek, even if
she's sick, she's dumb.....no matter what, they are pretty or they eventually
turn out to be pretty!! But that's something I’m not and never will be!
god has given me so much.....really has...but not
just this one thing and I guess it's the most important thing when it comes to
love!
I wonder how it feels to be in love, to kiss
someone you love, to spend time with them, be apart from them....... to be
something to someone and to be someone's something!
And it’s scary and it scares the hell out of me sometimes and there's probably
no one who'll understand and no one I can confide this to.
I think it’s all crap about being beautiful from
the inside..... Just stuff people make up to make someone like myself not feel
what I really feel!
And I’m not even someone who doesn’t give a crap
about what other's think of me or maybe that too are just people in the
movies!! I wonder how it feels never being conscious of people looking at you cos
your creeping them out or because you're nothing more than a CLOWN to them!!
Another night I cry myself to sleep......
